I still remember the man sitting on my porch in Brazil. Heâd had a situation at his home and he didnât know what to do, so he grabbed his whiskey bottle and came to church. When the pastor asked his to leave the bottle outside, he reminded the pastor of our motto, âCome as you are.â It was a Friday evening service, and I wasnât attending, so the pastor called me up and asked if he could send our friend to see me. I pulled two chairs out onto our front porch and he told me the story of how things had escalated out of control in their kitchen.
He lifted his ragged t-shirt to show me where his âwifeâsâ kitchen knife had sunk into his rib. Half an inch higher or lower, and it would have pierced his heart. Half-drunk. Half in shock. Six children inside the house. A relationship in flames. A neighborhood where almost no oneâs parentsâor grandparentsâknew God.
âIâm going to turn her in,â he said.
We sat in the silence for awhile.
I wondered if heâd thought that through.
âWho will take care of your children if sheâs in jail?â
We sat in the thick tropical darkness, imagining how things might play out.
He was still holding his bottle of whiskey as we prayed for wisdom and for Godâs intervention. It was a holy time.
Ministry in the Margins
Not tidy discipleship charts. Not clean before-and-after stories. But knife wounds. Broken trust. Impossible decisions.
And into that chaos, the Accuser whispers his favorite lies:
Youâre worthless. God is punishing you. Youâve gone too far. Youâll never be enough.
The enemy loves the extremes.
I remember a Bible school student once crushed with guilt for crossing the street on a red lightâhis past life had been a wreck, and now his conscience screamed over a Bible School rule violation.
I remember that call from a pastor when our friend showed up to church drinking straight from a whiskey bottle, quoting our own sloganââCome as you are. Youâll be loved.â
That pastor and I had history. We both remembered when he had showed up at church drunk, years earlier, overwhelmed with his life situations.
This is what I love about church planting. A healthy community shares the load.
Governments build roads and sanitation systems. Healthy churches navigate relationships.
When a community of people walks together, many things can happen at once. Lives change. Families heal. Neighborhoods transform.
The Accuser works both sides.
If he canât crush us with shame, heâll inflate us with self-righteousness. If we wonât believe weâre beyond grace, heâll convince us we donât need it.
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David Knew This Fight
Psalm 6 is Davidâs prayer from that brutal middle spaceâcaught between his own failure and the enemyâs accusations:
âLord, do not rebuke me in your anger or discipline me in your wrath. Have mercy on me, Lord, for I am faint; heal me, Lord, for my bones are in agony.â (Psalm 6:1â2)
David isnât asking God to ignore his sin. Heâs asking God not to let the Accuser set the terms.
David knew the difference between the Fatherâs discipline and the enemyâs condemnation.
Scripture doesnât sanitize his story: adulterer, indirect murderer, failed father. And yet God called him âa man after my own heartâ (1 Sam. 13:14; Acts 13:22).
That paradox is the gospel.
David even loved Absalom, the son who betrayed him and led a rebellion. And God loved David, not because he got it all right, but because he kept coming back.
The snake in the Garden is still Godâs snake. He serves as a testing ground, revealing what we truly believe.
Will we accept the Accuserâs version of us? Or Godâs?
The Prayer You Need When Guilt Wonât Let Go
David ends Psalm 6 with quiet authority:
âAway from me, all you who do evil, for the Lord has heard my weeping. The Lord has heard my cry for mercy; the Lord accepts my prayer.â (Psalm 6:8â9)
This isnât bravado.
Itâs discernment.
David finally names the real enemy, the one who poisons his thoughts and blinds him to the goodness of walking with God.
When my friend on my porch chose the harder, slower road of healing instead of the quick satisfaction of justice, the Accuser lost that round.
My friend has since passed away. His wife is a different woman todayâa follower of Jesus. The chaos didnât have the last word.
And it wonât have the last word in your story either.
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For Reflection
If guilt keeps looping in your mind, If regret feels louder than grace, If the Accuser is working overtime,
Memorize Psalm 6.
Pray it morning, noon, and night until it begins to feel true.
And when the Psalm speaks of enemies, donât picture your pastor, your parents, your neighbor, or your kids.
Picture the voice that tells you youâre beyond grace or beneath notice. That voice is the enemy.
Notice how Psalm 6 is structuredâpaired phrases circling an immovable center. As you compare Davidâs words, let the Spirit reshape your imagination around Godâs truth instead of the Accuserâs lies.
What accusation keeps circling back in your mind? What would it sound like to pray Psalm 6 over that lie this week?
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Deanna’s Journey to Healing
Radiation is a bit like dieting or going to the gym. Nothing seems to happen for a long timeâand then suddenly, it does. Delayed but real results.
This week, Deanna is recovering from radiation burns. Progress is a process, even when it feels slow.
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Prayer Requests
âą Deannaâs complete recovery from radiation burns âą The sale of the mission property in MarabĂĄ âą Wisdom and grace as we travel to Texas âą The upcoming conference and the conversations God has prepared
Deanna has an announcement (30 seconds).
Faith keeps serving, especially in wilderness seasonsâand sometimes that looks like pressing a red button and laughing together. And this wilderness season included our whole family and friend systems.
I love how the babies are trying to understand what kind of tribe they landed in. “What kind of people are we? How do we do things around here?” You can see them soaking it in, learning how our family handles situations. They’ll be leading the way soon enough.
Deanna’s announcement makes me think of Luke 17:7-10.
Imagine you have a servant whoâs been plowing fields or tending sheep all day. When he comes in, you donât say, âSit down and eat.â You say, âPrepare my supper. Serve me. Thenâafterwardâyou may eat.â Do you thank the servant for doing what he was commanded? So you also, when you have done everything you were told to do, should say, âWe are unworthy servants; we have only done our duty (Luke 17:7-10).
In other words, “That was easy! What else can we do while weâre here, and whatâs next?â
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A Word from This Week
Paul sat with Nick at Garden Park, the seniorsâ residence where my parents once lived. Nick worked asphalt crews with my father years ago. Now he volunteers at MCC, a local Mennonite missions and disaster relief organization.
It makes you wonder: How will children, and leaders, and all of us progress through our training seasons? And who will finish their race well?
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Prayer
Lord, silence the Accuser’s voice. Let me hear Yours instead, The voice that calls me Beloved, Redeemed, Held.
Heal what’s broken. Strengthen what’s faint. And teach me to recognize my real enemy, So I stop fighting the wrong battle.